A Day Off!

I decided to take today off.  There was no reason why I wanted this Monday off, I just wanted a day to do whatever I wanted!  And so far whatever I wanted has been cleaning, checking out Pinterest (addicting site!), and laying on my couch watching The Sopranos and Tabitha Takes Over.  So that has been my day thus far and I must say that I have enjoyed it.  I believe next I will try to figure out the next book I want to read, choice, choices, choices!
I have told you about my today and I must tell you about my yesterday!  I took Anthony to Marengo, IN, my hometown!  It was his first time going to that dreadful place but he actually seemed to like it.  I think he liked that it was quiet and it definitely is that.  We visited with my mom and I believe Anthony received her stamp of approval.  Oh yeah, the boyfriend met the mother, things are getting serious all up in here!  Afterwards we went to Blue River Cafe in Milltown, IN and had a very good meal.  I am proud of little Crawford County for finally having a somewhat good restaurant.  After that we came home to the ville.  I am always happy to be back in Louisville, it is my favorite place to be. 

Well Again....At Least I Hope

I have been sick for all of January.  I have been in a heated battle with an upper respiratory infection that kept coming back over and over and over.  I was first hit with sickness the week after Christmas.  I pushed through the sickness because I NEVER go to the doctor, going to the doctor is my last resort.  The sickness went away but then came back about a week later so I broke down and went to the doctor.  The doctor said I had an upper respiratory infection.  She prescribed me amoxicillin.  Unfortunately a few days after starting my medication, I broke out in a terrible itchy rash.  Surprise, surprise, I am allergic to penicillin!  YAY!  I was prescribed some other medication which I am really not sure what it was suppose to do, I am assuming it was suppose to help get the amoxicillin out of my body or maybe help with the terrible rash I had.  For a weekend I itched and itched and itched.  Along with my itching there was a lot of bitching.  I am a terrible sick person, I get very angry at the world so yeah you don't want to be around me when I am sick. lol  By Monday, in time for work, thankfully, my rash was pretty much gone.  However, a couple days later I started getting sick yet again!  Back to the doctor I go and I was prescribed another medication to get rid of what was left of this upper respiratory infection.  I am thankful to say that the medication seems to be working and I feel back to normal today!  YAY!  So January has not been my month but I am happy to say that I do feel back to healthy which makes me so happy.  I have a new empathy for people that are sick a lot because it is a terrible thing.  I have had trouble functioning at work because it is all I can do just to make it through the day.  Also my workouts have suffered and I love to workout but when you feel sick it is hard just to make it through the day let along through a workout.  I look forward to actually being able to enjoy life again and to having good workouts!  I just look forward to feeling normal again!  Hopefully February will be a great, HEALTHY month for me :-)  I need it, please!

Does not take a lot to make me happy!

Today started out like most days for the past couple of months.  I woke up with the world on my shoulders.  Made myself get out of bed even though it was so hard to do.  Thought about how much I didn't want to go to work and how I have really messed up and how things could be so much better if not for my bad choices.  Got to work, put on my happy face.  Ended up crying to my boyfriend on the phone, tried not to but couldn't. (He really is a saint for putting up with me.)  But then half way through the day, I decided to sketch out a budget.  And you know my budget wasn't that terrible.  I mean, there will be nothing extravagant for me this year, minimalism is my goal for this year.  No shopping, a lot less eating out, no travel, nothing expensive!  I have figured out that I MIGHT, let me emphasize MIGHT be able to pay off my car at the end of the year!  (Cross your fingers for me)  What a burden that will be off of me.  That was the first bright spot in the day.  I called my boyfriend and told him the good news.  (He really is going to get tired of me calling him to tell him random things.)  Then a couple hours later I got an email from Avalon offering me a free drink that evening!  And you know what I had already made plans with one of my friends to go to Avalon that night.  I exclaimed after reading that email "God does like me occasionally!"  I know my co-workers probably thought something really wonderful had happened to me because of how excited I was.  Funny how a free drink can make your day.  The rest of the day just seemed brighter after all that.
I don't know what tomorrow will bring but I am thankful that today wasn't too bad of a day :-)  

A Tuesday for the Tears

Today I started out my day by crying to my boyfriend and that was the tone of my day.  My thoughts today have been focused on the discontent in my life and there seems to be a lot of it right now.  I really feel out of sorts and as if I just can’t get things right.  I am realizing just how stupid I have been in some aspects of life and that is hard.  Especially when some things are not easily fixed.  I have woken up every morning lately hating my life and hating myself.  I guess what is getting to me most is how financially irresponsible I have been.  My debt weighs on my mind constantly and it is hard knowing that I could be close to debt free now if I would have made better choices.  There is no thing as good debt, I don’t care what anyone says.  I have a student loan and a car loan that suffocate me each month.  Every time I look at my car I see something I could have done without and instead paid for college.  I hope to find a different job so I can pay off things.

Another part of my past that I can’t seem to put to rest is how stupid I have been in relationships with men.  I wasted so much time on men that didn’t care for me.  Why did I do that?  Why did I feel that I didn’t deserve someone to be good to me?  I feel used by men, I don’t know why I allowed myself to be used but I did.  I really am thankful for my current man in my life but I also can’t help but acknowledge my past relationships and it has been hard.

I guess I have just came to a point where I am analyzing my past and really seeing it for what it was.  I wanted to think that I was making good choices but I wasn’t.  Now I have to figure out how to move past all this and that is where I am.  What should my next steps be?  I am scared about screwing up some more but I guess I can only hope that I have learned from my mistakes.

My First Post!

How exciting!  This blog post is going to be short and sweet because I am tired.  I just wanted to say that I am excited to start blogging.  I had a blog a few years ago but lost interest in it.  Hopefully this time I will keep up with it more!
I named this blog Simply Sarah which I know is probably a boring title but this blog will not be boring! (Or at least I hope not)  I am starting this blog so people can get to know who I really am and maybe understand me a bit better.  I look forward to sharing my stories with everyone.
I hope you will read my blog.  I am going to work to post at least once a week if not more.
Stay tuned!  And good night everyone!